Falling

Tim has been in NY for almost a month and its been so hard. Being here alone with Erik and his allergic reactions and all that. No real friends and shitty family makes for a very alone person. I really would like just one person I could depend on... or hell. I get to go do something without my child for once since he was born pretty much. Hell its been months since someone has watched him even for an hour (not counting when Tim would get up with him in the morning) I am talking so I can do something, so Tim and I could do something. Its funny, people are like well at least you are not a single mother... well yeah but every single mother I know has friends and family who help. All I have is Tim and all he has is Me which is nice unless WE want to do something. o well